Oh ya, I deleted my previous post... was there for 1 day... lols, and I thought I would never say... and yet after saying it, I regretted immediately. =.= SO I deleted it!
Hehe, it's morning again.. 816am.. time to go home soon to see my baby :D YEAY SO HAPPY TO SEE HER, hahaha, the joys of being a mother..... something most of u won't be enjoying anytime soon. lols, surprisingly, she is the ONE who keeps me in check, my emo-ness, my behaviour, my manners... The other day, while I was tearing, she looked confused and pull a tissue paper from the tissue box, press it against my face, in an effort to wipe away my tears. Can't really express in words how I felt.. touched? guilty? happy? AH....
I've been keeping my emo-ness in check, I think everything should be practised in moderation; sometimes it's good to vent ur frustration a little so that you will feel better; sometimes it's better to be silent about things and let pple say what they want. I've learnt to only speak on things that I feel strongly about and what truly affects me, the rest of the issues, I've learnt to let them go.
I was speaking casually with wanny on cab the other day, he said that somehow dota girls always seem to have alot of taiji with one another. He's right and I know alot of it, and been through alot of it, seen alot of it. And I can only say it's sad. But I'm glad that majority of girls are happy in the team they are in now, I think that's what matters the most. I told wanny I miss the dn* days, where there's ruby maki etc who cheers during our training and every training was fun, where u can actually joke with people while training. And I guess, one of the reasons was that we could actually have a fighting chance against competitive guys' team, comparatively to the standard then. Wanny commented, 'the good old days'...... and I thought it was very apt. lols, anyway wishing both PMS and NyX luck in dota tourneys and walking thr. the rest of the journey.
Feeling very contented now, maybe it's the morning sunshine~ and Lei says he got a surprise for me next week, looking forward to it. Lei's been irritating me, but loving me... and I'm loving it. haha :)
