Rewind

I ate alot of potato chips n chocolate..... with a cup of coke...

This shows, I'm either very happy... or very emo..... I think it's probably the 2nd answer.
I think that love is very selfish.... and petty.....
A guy like Lei can be nice n generous in every way; but when it comes down to me, he's just exactly the opposite, selfish and petty.. It makes me suffocated... I tot I am dying everyday from his hold on me. Does loving him means ignoring everyone else?

I wonder if I can be happy again..... I was thinking if I could just leave...... leave for a week; will that make me realise how impt Lei is to me? But there's no questioning, how impt Lei is to me... yet does he really care for how i feel and what I think.... or does he just want me by his side regardless of everything else? Is all these trouble caused by another guy...... or is there already a widening gap between us?

I know, u've been trying to treat me better...... bringing me to concert, buying light sticks for me... It was all good.... maybe it's just me; i'm so tired of trying.. for u. I was so nice..... so nice to u.... I spoilt u literally... but ur words were so piercing to the ears when you're angry. It hurts really... then there will be a phase where u would apologise profusely...... Then in the first place, u could have stopped yourself from uttering those lines.

Words said, cannot be taken back sometimes..... it rings in my mind.... everytime I want to really fall in love with u again.... I've given up many things n people for u...... I hope u realise that in time..

Still loving u.... laogong..