I finally got a tagbox up -.-"
Anyway, there was a very lovely surprise for me a week ago..... I met up with my mei whom I havent see for about 3-4yrs or so... Haha.... still treat her like a kid... cause when I know her, she's only 15, an enthusiastic cute cs player. Still talk to her like someone whom I am close with; well, seems that with age, we realise who are the people who matters and who are just passerbys. Saw my ah di aka Kazuya at wcg too, he's grown up pretty fast... haha... almost cant recognise him cause the last time I saw him, he was just a small scrawny boy.... AH, what was I doing all these years? lols.
I look at my life now and see many things I could have fared better in. One regret, is that with my family.... inability to express myself when I'm with my parents seem to be a flaw that I cannot and do not know how to rectify. But I hope they can feel my love with every visit I make. I've made it a point to visit few times a month... and although my family life with Lei is great now, I do miss home. They say cancerians like to reminisce about the past; and YES, I find it totally interesting to look back to the past for some answers. Well, the choices of yesterday made u the person u r today.
And although the whole world is bored with this topic, I'm still gonna say I'm really blessed to be with Lei. Our love share many common problems amongst our couples. A gamer girl's most emo qn: Would you choose the game or me? I've asked Lei that before no matter how childish it reflects on me. It probably stems from insecurities and/or feeling a lack of attention that was previously given during courtship. But we've gotten over that stage... perhaps marriage gives Lei n me a whole new different concept about the words 'love' and 'relationship'. While I learn to be more contented and understanding, dardar learns to be more expressive about his love... He gives me a different reason to whine, pout, stick my tongue out at him everyday; on the same note, he gives me every reason to smile, grin and laugh everyday. I love him and I hope all the girls around me with gamer bfs, would learn to separate game from relationship. Whilst we expect our guys to do that, we need to be able to do that first :) I'm still learning the ropes of marriage life and I have a lifetime with Lei to continue learning. :)
