I'm so lost, really need time alone. I tot of watching a movie alone, go lan overnight alone, go to my favourite hangout n sit there alone. Reflect. I need time. Don't make me feel more stressed than I already am. Need some changes in lifestyle. Priorities : studies, family, fun. I lost something this month, something that used to give me the drive.. something in me. Need to find it back.... before it disappears... and I become an empty shell. I'm back Home. Home SweeT Home. I am listening to 'eMo' songs.. cool.... makes me feel that I found a piece of myself back...
Lei : I'm so sorry. I wish I can bring a smile to your face, makes me unhappy to noe I caused it. I can really make things so good for u temporarily... but wat about long term? Does it really matter if I'm the girl for you... and u're the guy for me, den why does being together feel so painful? We're just trying too hard.... maybe let things go... and they'll come back soon... I duno, but I'm gonna just wait and see.... Those happy memories? They meant something. But maybe not enough.. I am really confused. I hope u can see that being happy together is the most important thing. If we r ever gonna have another chance, we really have to let things go first... imo... plz dun blame me.. or hate me. I am not sure of what I'm feeling anymore either. Let me settle things in my life..... my studies, my family... I really can't multi-task well. The song that always reminds me of u.... : Nothing's gonna change my love for you.
Dk : Tks for being there for 7 mths. I wish that U can find a better girl..... though u would probably say there's none other. U don't understand... I am lost now. I can't give u any guarantees... and I don't want u to be waiting for another 7 mths.. There are some things u cannot learn from books such as 'How to develop closer relationships'. And these are practical things. There's nothing wrong about U... or u being with me. But what's so RIGHT about us? I can't feel it, can't see it. My doubts are many.... numerous.... I'm just not sure. Don't make things more confusing than it already is... Please...